Wednesday, September 15, 2010

Cookie Cutter Prison

I am in a mode that has me hating pretty much everything, but mostly my house.
If you aren't in the mood for my negativity it's best to move on.
I know I should be grateful that I have a nice house...blah, blah, blah.

I hate my house, because it's monochromatic and boring.
I hate the oversize clock hanging in my kitchen, it's predictable.
I hate my wood 2" blinds, because there circa 1998 (and I spent a fortune cause I just had to have them).
I hate my dark woven jacquard comforter, it's hideous (found it on sale at Kohl's and felt as if the skies had parted).
I hate my fireplace mantle and the two boring giant vases that balance the ugly picture hanging above.  
I hate my drapes that puddle to the floor (puddle...how stupid, but I once thought it was OH SO cool).
I am even starting to hate the quartz counter tops and new back splash we JUST put in.
I despise the antique finish on the guest bathroom vanity (probably more because I did it myself and faux finishes are outdated).
Hate my stupid kitchen table with its heavy leather chairs with nail heads. 
I hate this economy and the fact that I am stuck here with no real inspiration driving me to change anything.
I hate how cookie cutter my house is along with all the crap in it.

image from thiraya wordpress

Maybe it's not the house at all, considering I once meticulously picked everything in it. Maybe it's that the responsibility weighs me down and keeps me from jumping on a plane and say...moving to Ireland.  Maybe it represents a stage in my life that has passed. Maybe I am searching for a an adventure that has nothing to do with color swatches, bad clocks or faux impressions. Maybe I hate my house simpy because I am bored, but so very hopeful for the future....no more cookie cutter life for me.

4 comments:

Lucky Mama said...

I feel the same way....I need CHANGE in my life, but I don't know what that is exactly. I don't want to change things in my house, I want a different house. It doesn't have to be bigger/better just something/somewhere different. I would like to just pack up and go live in a foreign country for a year or two. Let's go together! :)

Earthier said...

When do we leave? I too want a different house, something more origignal. I would leave everything in my house behind too. Start from scratch!

Earthier said...

With "origignal" would be pretty original!

Lucky Mama said...

I feel the same way....I'm restless!
Start from scratch. :) and yes, something original with charm and character.
I feel like a hamster on a wheel most of the time.